"She gave everything she had to a boy, who changed his mind." First true love never dies, I will always remember and be grateful that I knew him, but I have accepted recently that he will never belong to me again, and it is better for him this way. So now we are trying to be friends, and it is working out okay, I hope it gets better. It turns out when Elise and Jeff come for my graduation, we are going to have dinner at Dave's house and Jerry, Mellisa, Suzie and Julie are going to be invited. That is going to be interesting with all of the hard feelings I have for Julie especially. I just applied to volunteer at Marybridge Children's hospital to hold the premature babies, I am exploring the medical field to see if that is what I want to go to college for. And plus, it looks really good on a resume to have volunteered at a childrens hospital. And I need a better job when I get out of high school so I can afford to live on my own. I do not want to be old enough to bring home the beer and still be living at home. I dont want a roommate or to move in with a guy because chances are that they would flake out, so I just want to move out on my own. Maybe ill go away to college and live in a dorm for a while. Anyways, one more random blog lol. Ps I really really want the sun to come back!!!!
Well I have officially had the worst Easter ever. I got my mom some chocolate and made her breakfast, then we had some errands to run and ended up fighting all day. Also, I went to go see my "Father Figure" because he needed a copy of my license for his taxes.. Apparently I have two more guests for my graduation :/ He really isn't so bad anymore, we were talking and everything was fine. Then Ranae came back and made it so awkward for me that I had to just leave. But the good news!!! Saturday, Josh informed me that I had gotten a package from "Mollet" I was super excited because Lindsay e mailed me on my birthday asking me to pick some colors for my birthday present!! It is this little purse that she made. It is so adorable! Its got some places to hold cards, and it has the cutest little button on the front. I think it was really sweet and thoughtful! Best of all, she embroidered my name onto the inside of it!! Thank you Lindsay!! I love it.
Eek! I haven't posted in a very long time. So much has been happening and I just haven't thought about it. Well me and Josh broke up :/ I still think were soul mates and I'm trying to win his heart back, but its not working out so well. If you love somebody let them go. So that's what I'm going to do. If he comes back to me, he's mine, if he doesn't, he never was. I also went to California!! It was the beginning of April and it was a bit cold but still fun!! I got to lay out on Santa Monica beach and get a little tan. Not much though. It was a road trip and it took 24 hours to get down there. We stayed in Calabasas in a little motel conveniently located next to a Starbucks (: So when we got back I spent 6 hours cleaning the apartment, and became quite the loner. I have just been thinking a lot about everything but I think my life is clear now. <3
