"She gave everything she had to a boy, who changed his mind." First true love never dies, I will always remember and be grateful that I knew him, but I have accepted recently that he will never belong to me again, and it is better for him this way. So now we are trying to be friends, and it is working out okay, I hope it gets better. It turns out when Elise and Jeff come for my graduation, we are going to have dinner at Dave's house and Jerry, Mellisa, Suzie and Julie are going to be invited. That is going to be interesting with all of the hard feelings I have for Julie especially. I just applied to volunteer at Marybridge Children's hospital to hold the premature babies, I am exploring the medical field to see if that is what I want to go to college for. And plus, it looks really good on a resume to have volunteered at a childrens hospital. And I need a better job when I get out of high school so I can afford to live on my own. I do not want to be old enough to bring home the beer and still be living at home. I dont want a roommate or to move in with a guy because chances are that they would flake out, so I just want to move out on my own. Maybe ill go away to college and live in a dorm for a while. Anyways, one more random blog lol. Ps I really really want the sun to come back!!!!