Today has been extremely busy. I woke up and Emily's at 8, then had to leave to take my mother to a doctors appointment like always... Then I had to go to this RIDICULOUS food handling class, I almost fell asleep. The test is basically common sense, even a caveman could pass it! Then I had to run into work to give my boss a copy, where she kept me talking to her for a half hour. Then I had to go to Direct TV to make a payment so they will hook up our cable. I pulled up to the Direct TV building and the sign was in Chinese. I thought maybe we ended up in the wrong country. Then I went shopping with Emily and ate my weight in Chinese food since were in China anyways.

My tongue is healing up super well. The first week I thought I was going to die of starvation because I couldn't eat for 4 days. It was super swollen and hurt so bad. I got to put the smaller tongue bar in though so it is much easier to eat. I thought my dad was going to start crying when I showed him, he hates it.

Kyle texted me the other day saying that he misses talking to me and I pretty much told him that I cannot talk to him anymore because I was getting way too attached and he has a girlfriend so either way I would end up getting hurt. But enough about him! I am interested in Matthew Fraizer now(: The first time we hung out, I stole his hat and after he left, I informed him that I still had it. He said 'well that just gives me an excuse to see you again' (:

Anyways, that's it for now. I have another busy day tomorrow, another one of my mother's doctors appointments, then another appointment. Also, we got the new Smallville in our Netflix so I am excited to watch it! I am such a nerd I know.
Goodnight.

My life has been quite eventful since last time I posted (which was not too long ago)

I got a laptop because I am supposed to be starting school in January and this way it would be easier on me then using the schools computers all the time or sitting on my home computer. Today we are going to T mobile to get Internet for it. I can get wireless Internet anywhere I go and they will just tack on $25 to our monthly bill. I love this thing, it is so much more convenient then the home computer.

Emily and I went to Ranae's Arbonne party together a few days ago. I bought some of the powder foundation, both me and my mother love that stuff! And I won a game so Ranae gave me this super amazing eyeliner. I believe that she is just trying to get me hooked on it so I will continue to buy it from her. (Its working! I'm completely hooked) It was fun, Emily got to meet another branch of where I come from and I got to see Ranae's sisters again.

Tomorrow I have to go renew my food handlers card. My boss told me two weeks ago that it was expired but I completely spaced it. So today I got this e mail that basically said if I don't get it into her by Friday, she will not give me hours anymore. So I looked up somewhere that I could get it done right away and it turns out that some bingo center in Renton is having a class for tomorrow. I hope it is as easy as I remember.

So I have completely given up on Kyle. All the odds were against me so I moved on and stopped talking to him. But then I started talking to this guy Matt that was in my graduating class. We hung out a few times and discovered that we have amazing chemistry. The only sad part about this is that he is going into the air force so he is leaving in a few months. I don't really want to get close to somebody and attached if they are just going to leave. In the meantime, he is a great guy and fun to be with.

I believe that's everything!
Kbye(:

Today is my Dad's birthday. Happy birthday!!! Yesterday Ranae had a birthday get together for him but I could not attend because I had to work from 2-9. My Sunday hours are ridiculous, almost as if I were on call.

My tongue is healing nicely, the swelling is going down and I can eat again. I wasn't able to eat anything for four days. Then yesterday I had a huge breakfast because it was less swollen. But my stomach felt really sick after I did that because I had not eaten in 4 days then all of a sudden ate a lot of food. I'm taking it slower now.

So I think I am pretty much done with Kyle. We have a good time when we are hanging out but I have to work really hard to make him keep his plans with me. He still has a girlfriend, and I think he is losing interest anyways. He thinks that I am mad at him. I am not, I just don't want to play his games anymore.

I have been talking to my old friends from high school and noticing that they could be really good friends to have in my life. So I hung out with Chris the other day and we didn't do anything out of the ordinary that anyone would think was super fun. We just watched YouTube videos and played with his Zune. I had an amazingly fun night though!! I am supposed to hangout with my friend Matt today, but before that, I really want to stop by and wish my Dad a happy birthday.

I got a letter in the mail that says that my financial aid application was incomplete. I have to go into Highline to fill out a financial aid data sheet for that particular school. I heard somewhere that the deadline for financial aid was sometime last week so I am really nervous that I wont be able to go to school in January. I might have to wait until Spring quarter which I really don't want to do. So I am going to go to Highline tomorrow to talk to an advisor about what is happening. Hopefully we will get it all sorted out.

Bye for now!! ((Happy birthday Dad))

Since the last time I posted...

I haven't been sleeping very well. I have been going to bed really late and getting up really early from these nightmares that I have been having. I do not remember any of them five minutes after I wake up but then I cant go back to sleep. So I have been going to the gym as soon as they open around 5 AM. I do not know what to do about this, but at least one good thing comes out of it. I get more done in my day now that I am not sleeping as much.

I am getting super sick of Kyle's games. He tells me he wants to hangout time after time then ditches me. This story is sounding a bit too familiar from one of my ex's that I had this same exact problem with. Maybe its that I just drive guys away for no apparent reason. We were supposed to hangout tonight when I got off work but then I noticed that I had a few text messages waiting for me. Guess who it was? Kyle saying that he is sorry but he wont be getting back home until late. So I just told him never mind. I feel used and unwanted from him so just forget about it!!

I also got my tongue pierced!!! It didn't really hurt that bad when she was sticking the needle through but then the swelling came and now I cant eat ANYTHING. I am absolutely starving because it hurts way too much to eat anything. I have an open hole in my tongue which is swollen and it hurts very much. I have been taking Ibuprofen 800s which only help sometimes. I am supposed to be able to put my smaller tongue bar in on Tuesday when the swelling goes down. Lets hope that the swelling goes down sooner rather than later.

Last night I went over to hangout with my friend Emily. It was fun, I usually go in the middle of the night because that's when I get off work. We caught up on life drama and everything. I got to talk to her boyfriend and 'approve' of him. He is funny which I like because a guy that has no sense of humor is not worth being with. We finally went to sleep around 3am and woke up at 8am. She had to clean the place up for her brother's birthday party. We got ready and then her brothers came over, it was sort of weird seeing them because I haven't seen Keith since the Dairy Queen days and her other brother Ricky since her last birthday. Everybody had a good time though.

That's it for now!!

I think I am getting sick:( Last night when I got home from work I was constantly blowing my nose and I was actually warm. ((Since I am anemic, this means that I have a fever)) I guess it's that season again. Every winter I always get sick for 2 weeks, when this is over I need to get my butt to the doctor's for a flu shot! I don't want to contract that too.

Yesterday I went to see my Dad and Ranae for the first time since my graduation I believe. It was nice, we caught up on the new things in our lives and he gave me his last Rockstar(: I am going to have to go buy him one of those 4 packs as a thank you for the thought. It was nice seeing them again although I was on call for work at the time. I hate those days when I am scheduled at 2, but then it's not busy enough for me so they call and tell me to check back at 3pm to see about labor rates. Then if labor is still too high, I would have to call back at 5. This is usually the extent of my Sunday's but visiting was a much better idea!

I was supposed to hangout with Kyle today but I think he is avoiding me. We have had these plans since last week, then he texts me this morning and says that he thinks he's getting sick. I told him I think I am too and offered to bring him some soup but he always has some excuse. I even woke up early and got all pretty, I did my hair, nails, eyebrows, makeup etc.. So what I am going to do is make him make the effort with me if he wants to. I am not going to bother him all the time about hanging out, if he wants my time he is going to have to make an effort. Until then I am just not going to talk to him as much.

I do not have to work until Wednesday now! I love working Wednesdays because it is the day that I get to work with my two favorite people, Ginger and Michelle. I love most people that I work with, but these two people are my favorite and on Wednesdays I get to work with both of them. I am super sad though because Ginger is going away to Florida for a week so next Wednesday will suck.. Because she is leaving, I got scheduled more hours than usual. I work Wednesday, Friday, Saturday and Sunday. I always end up with more hours when somebody requests time off because I am 18 and a lot of minors work at Cold Stone and they cannot be there past 10pm on school nights. Its good and bad at the same time, on one hand I get more hours, and on the other hand I have no life.

I was noticing last night that it is getting into mid-October and it hasn't even rained that much. When I walk outside it is usually blue skies which is nice. I woke up today to a nice gray cloudy October sky. I have this feeling that we are headed for Winter faster than anybody wants. Last Winter I crashed my car twice. There is no way I will be driving in the snow this year for anything. NOTHING.

That's it for today!! (:

My Dad brought it to my attention that I have not written in a very long time, so here it is.

On September 21st, I took my Mother to the Emergency Room because she went into cardiac arrest. She is okay but the doctors are pretty sure that she had a minor heart attack. They put her on a low sodium, low cholesterol diet. My sister Elise was nice enough to send this Mona-Vie product (She works for the company) which is supposed to help with joint problems and keep her heart healthy. We were both so happy when we got it and hope like crazy that it helps. Thanks again girl!

I am officially an Independent Provider. That means I can work for a care giving agency. They go into people's homes and help them take care of themselves. I love doing it and it will also help me become a nurse. For now I am providing for my mother as a 'live in assistant'. It also will look good on a resume I'm thinking.

I start Highline in January. I am going to get an AA degree in nursing then go on to a bigger college and transfer in as a junior to get a better degree.

I met this guy named Kyle. He's 22, he works in a correctional facility, has red hair and green eyes. The first time we hung out I thought he was amazing, absolutely perfect. I was thinking that there must be something wrong with him because he seemed a little too perfect, but passed it off as my cynicism towards men. I should have trusted my initial instinct about him. I have come to find out that he has a girlfriend that he neglected to tell me about until I was already hung up on him. We talked about it and he still wants to be friends but a few things about him have been irritating me.
1. He lied to me.
2. He doesn't trust my friends, even though he has never met them.
3. He always makes up excuses about why he cant hangout.
4. I feel like he has been avoiding any contact with me at all.
So I guess I will see how this goes. Hopefully it will turn out for the better, whatever that might be.

I got a gym membership at LA Fitness again. I used to have one with my ex boyfriend Josh, but he never wanted to workout in front of me and I was always with him so I never got to go. So then I cancelled it because it was a waste of money if I was never going to go. But I got it reinstated so now I go all the time, and I didn't have to pay any initiation fees again(: I love going to the gym when I am stressed out, it is great therapy.

I have been shopping like crazy lately. I tend to like to spend money when I am upset and my emotions have been all over the place lately. I got a few new shirts, boots, a sonicare toothbrush, a new jacket, and some other things. I don't know who I am going to go shopping with when my bestie Jessica goes to Western this January. I am happy for her, but sad for myself at the same time because I will miss her like crazy. She said that she will be back all the time, and its only a 3 hour drive so Ill still get to see her, just not as much. :(

That's pretty much it for now. Bye(: